Artifacts

While learning about the Big Five traits of personality I began to reflect on what I knew about myself or thought I knew about myself. I always knew I was an extrovert but I always thought my conscientiousness was a little higher than the score I was given after taking the test. I saw how in the past my extroversion was able to compensate for the lack of conscientiousness that I have and why I thought that way. I've come to realize that in the future I have to work on my organizational skills and discipline when it comes to my professional and school endeavors.  

Getting deeper into the subject of introverts/extroverts and how to work together was very interesting especially learning about the strengths and weaknesses they have. I found it all the more interesting how emotional intelligence is key to creating cohesiveness between the two. Learning this and being able to identify people as such is important across the board, with friends, co-workers, school mates even siblings. Building knowledge based on how people respond and communicate or I should say how people prefer to be communicated to will increase positivity in my life. Where I might have read negativity into a person's quite response at a work function like a Christmas party I will now try read the persons body language first. Perhaps they are an introvert and taken out of their element, they didn't want to come in the first place. In the future I would like to learn methods of quick ways to make an introvert comfortable in such scenarios.  Maybe there isn't one. Communication and acceptance I think is so important for a person to be happy that I don't like it when people feel left out or awkward

Module Four Journal

This was by far my favorite Module; I found that it swayed me towards Humanism right after learning and agreeing with so much of the nature part of nature vs nurture. However, after thinking about, it I realized that you cannot have one without the other. I have seen people grow up in the same household and be completely different. I actually personally know 4 sets of twins and it's the same for all of them. 2 sets I've known since birth, they're in their early teens now. I believe we are born with a personality, I believe I described it as a world with no structures or vegetation in different paper, anyway these worlds are unique but only come with valleys, rivers, plains and such. What we grow and put on them are our experiences, our experiences don't shape our world but they decide if our plains our lush and our water is clean (am I taking it to far with the analogy?). I think so. But you get it. Our experiences shape what we do in the future given what we have been given from birth and what we have grown in experienced.

Module Six Journal

In Module 6 I learned a lot about myself in a positive way, I learned that I self-assess a lot, even before I knew what it was. I do it more now that I know it helps with emotional intelligence. but this module also raised a lot of questions about stressors and how much I fixate on them. I was sitting on my porch the other day thinking about things I had to get done, normal stuff, laundry, homework, pay bills. and there seemed to be this void. I couldn't figure out what it was until I realized it's that there was nothing wrong. there is nothing to fix, there is nothing catastrophic going on my life. My kids are happy, bills are paid, my leg strength is improving. I began to worry. I thought to myself, things are too good, what shoe is about to drop? Why is God giving me such piece? I literally got anxiety over not having anxiety. I would like to learn more about living with peace, appreciating it, why do I have the need to constantly be working on a problem, not that it's a bad thing to try to always feel accomplished but if things are great why can't I soak it in, accept it? I look forward into digging into this more.